February 6, 2009

This Mommy I've Become

I have noticed that I have changed a lot since becoming a Mommy, and as I sit here thinking about that, I'm wondering what exactly made those changes???? Like what minute actions and occurences have made me into the Mommy that I PROUDLY am today?

Here are some I can think of off the top of my head:

-Not being able to bathe whenever and for however long i want to
-Not being able to go to the bathroom alone
-Finding myself sitting on the potty while stretching out a hand to rock a crying baby and singing "twinkle twinkle little star"
-Witnessing my son's and my daughters' first moments/breaths/cries/smiles/laughs/rolls/crawls/steps/burps/bites of food/etc...
-Not being able to sleep whenever and for however long i want to
-Doing the Mommy lick-my-finger-and-wipe-something-off-kids-face-thing
-Panicking that I'm not doing anything right as a parent
-watching my babies sleep/play/cry/fall down/get up/make friends/sit in my parents' and grandparents' laps
-trying to get them to make semi-decent faces for the Christmas picture
-BREASTFEEDING---one of the most selfless things EVER!!!
-holding them while they sleep/eat/cry/laugh/read a book/talk/bounce
-watching Brian with Jack and then watching him with Ali Grace--so different, yet still the same too
-disciplining Jack---UGH it's hard
-Letting God be in control--even of MY CHILDREN
-Praying for them before they were born, as they were being born, and afterward too, and for the future of them both
-Letting Jack cry it out----HEART WRENCHING
-Freaking out when I don't know what to do
-Laughing at them
-Taking care of them when they are sick (and telling Brian a thousand times that Yes, they are OK, they're going to be OK)
-Hurting with them
-Actually seeing them grow and learn
-Realizing that Brian and I are responsible for 2 little bodies and hearts and souls--and how would we ever do this without Jesus? WE CAN'T!!!
-Seeing our parents be so in love with our children
-AND LEARNING TO LOVE MORE THAN I HAVE EVER LOVED BEFORE

I LOVE BEING THIS MOMMY THAT I'VE BECOME! THANK YOU LORD!

2 comments:

aefelder said...

I think you're pretty great. :)

The Texas VicHorns said...

i love this list. it made me cry a little. :)